**warning- uber dooper negative post below. come back next week if you prefer sunny Kate
I'm sure I remember seeing her, but she feels really far away now.
Taking yesterday off wasn't quite enough to nip this in the bud, so have been off today as well. Off everything- off work, of my morning swim, off a planned date with my man. Just not off the couch.
The upshot of this is that I'm feeling slobbish and sluggish. I'm bored which means I'm eating heaps and badly. I'm tired which means I'm not exercising. And what can I do about it? It feels like the answer is "nothing." It's a frustrating cycle- the more I rest, the more lethargic I am. How much of the tiredness is sickness and how much is just plain, bog standard tiredness? How much is laziness? Why ME? Why cannot I not balance work with training? Neither my work weeks nor my training weeks have been that big. Everyone else is pulling down 14 hour weeks while juggling fulltime work and 2.4 kids. Plus what is the deal with the FOOD? Why is it that I can't just eat smart without counting? I don't want to count during m-thon training, but I don't want to be dragging 10 extra pounds around the lake in Rotorua. I badly need a kickstart, foodwise.
I tried to do a relaxed walk today, just to get some fresh air and hopefully pick up some energy, but even that was tough. I can't see speedwork tomorrow happening. Fortunately, I can still just barely keep my eye on the prize, as my long run is on Sunday (which means I have til Friday to do the speedwork).
Sorry for moaning. I hope the old Kate is back soon. I miss her!