Friday, June 26, 2009

In two minds

There’s a good chance that I’ll be spending most of July in Wellington. I’m very much in two minds about this. I started by writing a very grumpy post, then tried to be awesome instead, and had a go at a “yay!” post. That didn’t work because it was full of lies, since I’m not overly happy about it, but the grumpy post was a bit too bratty. So, here goes the “I’m in two minds” post.

Mind One
I love Wellington. I love the waterfront, the hills, the coffee, the lunch options in the Lambton area. Tempt.

I am excited about having friends again! People to lunch with, coffee with and shop with. I’ve missed that.

I am excited about the task that’s been set for me while I’m there. It sounds like it will be a fantastic challenge and incredibly interesting. I think being there will really help us all really focus, and make something great.

I really do like my Wellington work. I had a fabulous time going back to see my colleagues earlier this week- I miss them at least as much as I miss my friends.

Mind Two
I am frustrated by the short notice, and by the expectation that I will drop everything to fly down, when I feel like I’ve JUST settled in here.

I am hurt by an implicit suggestion that I need to come back because I haven’t tried hard enough to keep things moving since moving North. I HAVE tried, so hard, but it felt like no-one else tried back.

I am sad about missing swim squad, and especially sad about missing the social squad races that are starting in July.

I’m a little tense at the thought of living at home for a month- I love my dad and stepmother, but I feel like I’ve just got myself sorted, and I’m not sure how I’ll handle not being able to control my days. I know, it’s silly- but I’m liking my routine, my meals, my workouts.

I’m nervous about Phil. We’re used to our Cambridge/Auckland commutes, but airports make it harder, and we’ll by reliant on the benifecence of my firm.

Anyway, we’ll see. It might not happen- I should find out on Monday. But it’s been in my head a lot this week, so I needed to get it out


Britt said...

Don't stress before it happens. Either way - it's temporary..right?

Tri Saint said...

Holey moley, & I thought we all had it tough with Micheal Jackson dying.
Let's hope they don't need you in Welly's & you'll get on with your more structured life in the big smoke.

SUB6 said...

Wow! ... complicated. I'm afraid I would be very much in Mind Two! Hope you get the result you want on Monday. Maybe they'll send you to Cambridge next :)

Captain Cactus said...

Thanks for the congrats on my race last weekend. I hope that this all works out in your favour on Monday. I think it's fantastic that you're following the "Barney Stinson" methods and trying to just be AWESOME!